Friday, 29 October 2010

  • A Great Day

    Yesterday was my day off and it was one of the best days I've ever had. I got to sleep in, work out for an hour, swim for an hour and then have a late night skating session at the beach.

    I must say, I love the fact that despite it being late October I can still go to the boardwalk and ride my board at night. It's always such a relaxing feeling just being able to ride my ripstick while listening to my ipod. However, tonight was a different kind of skate session. I went with several friends and rather than going all the way to the end of the boardwalk, we kind of just cruised a little bit. A friend of mine who rides a longboard let me try it out. And I can now proudly say that I know how to ride a longboard! I must admit it was scary at first though. I definitely thought I was going to eat it, but thankfully I didn't fall.

    Another thing that's kind of exciting is I learned how to do "the jerk!" I know it's kind of late and that that dance has been around for quite some time now, but it was so exciting to actually be able to do it. I can't even tell you how many times my bestfriend tried teaching me and I just could not get the hang of it. But now I can .

    Anyway, I know no one really reads this, but I just felt like jotting down how great of a day I had. Hope for whoever reads this, that you too had or will have a great day. Goodnight.

Thursday, 21 October 2010

  • Who was your favorite teacher? Why?

    I'd have to say my most favorite teacher was my 6th grade History teacher. It wasn't so much that I loved the subject nor the class, but she truly touched my life. She was the type of teacher who reached out to her students and actually took the time to know and understand them as individuals. I will never forget how much she has helped me become who I am today.   

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Tuesday, 19 October 2010

  • The Unforgettable "date"

    Most people will probably read the title and assume this is about how a boy and a girl went out on a date. However, keep reading and you'll see what it's really about.

    My ex and I have been broken up for a little over a year now and though at first it was truly tough getting over it, I somehow was able to overcome it. For the most part, I have been trying to focus on me. And even though I had stopped keeping track of what our anniversary date was, it somehow would catch up to me. During the early stages of the breakup, I definitely was aware and kept tabs, reminding myself and friends that it would have been our so and so year and months of being together. However, as time went on it started to slip my mind. I guess what stumps me is how it all of a sudden snuck up on me again. I seem to find the smallest significance in things that shouldn't even matter. After not thinking about what our anniversary would have been, last night I found myself in my old train of thoughts.

    I currently am working two jobs right now and fortunately today I had the day off after working 2 weeks straight. And for some strange reason as I was sitting on my bed last night, looking at my planner and admiring the fact that I was finally about to have a day off, I noticed what the date was; the 19th. It just hit me right then and there that it would have been my anniversary had me and my ex not broken up. I couldn't help but think how wonderful it would of been to spend time with him after working 14 days straight; let alone that my day off landed on what would have been our anniversary.

    I wonder now if this means that I'm still not over him. Well to be honest, I still care about him and if he asked if I still loved him, my answer would be yes. However, given certain circumstances, I know that it wouldn't be smart to get back with him. I guess my question is, does it ever get to a point where these "dates" are completely erased from memory? Or will they continue to randomly pop up and trigger the past?

    I understand that this might all just be a part of the fact that I'm not completely over him. However, out of curiosity, has anyone else ever found themselves thinking about an ex or someone special due to a date?

Friday, 20 August 2010

  • An Interesting Read

    I came across this from a link that a friend of mine shared on facebook. It was quite touching. Hope you guys get something out of it.

    Here it is:
    MARRIAGE

    When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

    Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

    She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

    I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

    With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

    She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

    The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

    When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

    In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

    This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

    She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

    I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

    My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
    the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

    On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

    On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

    On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

    She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

    Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

    Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

    But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

    I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

    She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

    Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

    At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

    That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
    My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

    The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

    If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

    If you do, you just might save a marriage.
    Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

    A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

    So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

    By Stephanie Halmilton

Saturday, 02 January 2010

  • Looking back upon 2009

    2009 survey numero one

    This year, I...

    Went to a party: plenty of them

    Made new friends: most definitely

    Spent more time with family: of course

    Cooked a meal: helped at the least

    Went to a nice restaurant: yes

    Bought new shoes: yup my first pair of js 

    Broke up with someone: yes

    Tried a new food or drink: yes

    Used a skateboard: i tried a long board, but more of a waveboarder

    Had a picnic: nope

    Blasted music from a car: yes

    Changed your favorite color: no

    Recieved presents for Christmas: yes

    Had a nice Thanksgiving: it was good

    Was depressed for a time: yeah

    Had alcohol: never consumed more alcohol in my life

    Did any type of drugs: never

    Wrote a story: no

    Used a journal: yes

    Laid under the stars: no

    Cared less: at one time, yes

    Bought something rather expensive: yes

    Gave money to someone in need: i can't remember..

    Fell out of love: not quite

    Tried to or wrote a song: yes


    How many...

    Really enjoyable days have you had? numerous days

    Good friends do you have as of this moment? just enough

    Places have you visited? tons

    Times have you went swimming? didn't go as much in 09 as i have in previous years

    New artists have you listened to? quite a few

    Times have you been to the movie theatre? probably like 5

    Times have you been to someone else's house? too many to count

    Times you went to a theme park? twice


    This year was...

    Easy or difficult? both

    Filled more with love or pain? majority love

    Optimism or pessimism? the latter

    Fun or boring? had times of both

    Filled with change or routine? lots of changing


    Things you did...

    Did you visit a new state, or even a country? nope

    Did you get really sick? fortunately no

    Have to wait a really long time for something? yes

    Get a new wardrobe? just new pieces here and there

    Dye your hair? if so, how many times? like twice

    See a movie that REALLY sucked? not that i know

    Feel an urge to kill Twilight fans? no

    Ate a whole box of something? probably

    Did basically nothing for a day? oh yes gotta love the lazy days

    Acquired a new favorite snack? no

    Cried for a long time? yes

    Attended to a funeral? no

    Began learning a new language? nope

    Bought something nice for someone else? yes

    Rode an animal? no

    Created a new account on something you never use? yeah

    Started a group of friends? no

    Tried a new kind of shampoo? yeah

    Moved to a new place? no

    Went on an airplane? no

    A train? no

    Rode a bicycle? no

    Punched a hole through something? no

    Used an axe? no

    Gotten really irritated at a friend? yes

    Been in a fight? verbally

    Been pressured to use drugs? no

    Laughed really hard in public? probably

    Embarrassed yourself? yes

    Lost something important? yes

    Got locked out of a car? no


    Finally...

    Are you excited for the new year? sure

    Do you think the new year will be good? hoping for it

    How old will you be next year? 22

    Any goals? a couple

    2009 survery numero 2

    JANUARY:

    Did you have a new year’s resolution this year?
    i did but i don't remember it

    Does it snow where you live?
    nope

    Do you like hot chocolate?
    yes

    Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?
    nope but hopefully one day

    Do you ski or snowboard?
    nope

    FEBRUARY:

    Who was your Valentine?
    my boyfriend at the time

    When you were little did you buy Valentine’s for the whole class?
    yes

    Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?
    not really

    What did you get for Valentines?
    chocolate

    MARCH:

    Are you Irish?
    nope

    Do you wear green every year on St. Patrick’s Day?
    yes

    What did you do for St. Patty’s Day in 2009?
    i worked

    Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?
    yes and no

    APRIL:

    Do you like the rain?
    love it

    Did you play an April fool’s joke on anyone this year?
    yes my manager was gonna have a heart attack when i told her i was turning in my two week notice haha

    Do you get tons of candy on Easter?
    no

    Do you celebrate 4/20?
    no don't smoke

    Do you “love” the month of April?
    well i like it, its the month of my mom's bday

    MAY:

    What is your favorite flower?
    white roses with the pinkish trimming

    Finish the phrase “April showers..
    bring may flowers?

    Do you celebrate May 24th:
    whats on the 24th?

    Is May anything special to you?
    yeah, well this year was my 21st

    JUNE:

    What did you do for Fathers Day?
    had dinner at home w/the family

    Did you do anything fun during this month?
    went to a kareoke bar

    Have a favorite baseball team?
    no

    JULY:

    What did you do on the 4th of July?
    worked and then watched fireworks with friends on the base

    Did you go to the fireworks?
    yes

    Do you tan in the day?
    no

    Anything special happen this month?
    met some really fun people

    AUGUST:

    Did you do anything fun to end the summer?
    nothing out of the ordinary

    What was your favorite memory of summer?
    waveboarding on the boardwalk while the sun was setting

    Any birthdays this month?
    my boyfriend at time and my grandmother

    SEPTEMBER:

    Do you like fall better than summer?
    yes

    Anything special about September to you?
    not so much

    OCTOBER:

    What was your Halloween costume?
    i was a cop

    What is your favorite candy?
    almond m&ms and sour patch watermelon

    What is your favorite thing about this month?
    not sure

    What is your least favorite thing about this month?
    read above

    NOVEMBER:

    Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving?
    mine 

    DECEMBER:

    Do you celebrate Christmas?
    most definitely

    Have you ever been kissed under the mistletoe?
    no

    Get anything special this month ?
    several things

    Do you go to a formal this year?
    nope

    2009: In The Beginning

    Where did you go on New Years?
    my house and my bro-in law's house

    Who were you with?
    family

    Did you kiss anyone at midnight?
    nope

    Did you make any resolutions?
    yes

    2009: Your Love Life

    Did you break up with anyone?
    yes

    Did you get anything for Valentine’s Day?
    yes

    Did you meet anyone special?
    no, i knew him prior to 09

    Did you fall in love?
    i was already in love

    2009: Friends and Enemies

    Did you meet any new friends this year?
    plenty

    Did any of your friendships end?
    yes, but got it back

    Did you dislike anyone?
    kinda

    Did you make any new enemies?
    no

    Did you resolve any fights?
    yes

    Who were your closest friends?
    the ones who have seen me at my worst and still are there for me

    Who did you grow apart from?
    a couple people

    Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
    no

    2009: Your BIRTHDAY!

    Did you have a cake?
    yes

    What did you do for your birthday?
    went to vegas

    What was the best thing you got?
    spending my bday with my favorite people

    2009: All about YOU

    Did you change at all this year?
    oh yeah

    Did you dye your hair?
    twice

    Did you get your hair cut?
    couple times yes

    Did you change your style?
    somewhat

    Did you have a job?
    yes

    Did you drive?
    yes

    Did anyone close to you give birth?
    my two managers

    Did you move at all?
    no

    Did you go on any vacations?
    somewhat

    Did you leave the country at all?
    no

    2009: Wrap Up.

    Is 2009 a good year?
    it had some bad days, but a lot of wonderful memories

    Did 2009 bring any new insights?
    yes

    Do you think 2010 will top 2009?
    i know it will

    If you could relive any moment which would you choose?
    christmas day.

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